[00:00:36] Vesna: Welcome to the Peak Revival podcast. My name is Vesna. Today I am gonna talk about how I am living a one version of my worst nightmare. So just recently, about two or a couple of weeks ago. A I broke my ankle so significantly that I ended up in hospital for surgery. I've got a plate and two pins in my ankle. So basically I got up in the middle of the night to get a glass of water and missed a step on these steps, It's, it's kind of these stairs that curve down, they're terrible. I just flew down. And in fact, I can't even remember entirely what happened, which was really weird for me because I felt like. What? Ha Well, how come I can't remember. Like it was scaring me, right?
[00:01:19] I was like, is there something wrong with my brain? and then I found out later talking to different people that when you have an accident, often you cannot remember what happened. Your brain wipes it out. But I do remember going down the stairs and, um. Not being able to catch onto anything. So I flew down those stairs and I flew down from a very high point.
[00:01:37] So I think I went down about 10, 11 steps. my leg went under me. and again, I wouldn't have known this, but I've got a graze on top of my knee on the top of my foot.
[00:01:46] So we piece it together, that actually my knee, my leg is. Clipped under and it's, you know, just smashed my ankle quickly went to the hospital and they were like, oh, you've got a broken ankle. It's so significant. We've gotta take you in for surgery now. And I [00:02:00] was like, what? it was quite overwhelming because it just happened so fast and you know, thank.
[00:02:07] God for the people at the Alfred Hospital, which is one that's very close to me, So that's where I'm at right now. I am 12 weeks living this sedentary lifestyle, which for me, and the reason why I say this is my worst nightmare is literally.
[00:02:22] I've often thought when I see people with a broken leg, I'm like, oh, I could never do that. Like I've, I've broken quite a few bones before. as a kid I was always falling over and I'd break something, but, I never broke my leg or my ankle, and I always thought if that ever happens, uh, that would be my worst nightmare because I'm so active.
[00:02:41] I walk everywhere. If anything I need, if I'm going out, if I go to the supermarket, if I walk my dog or I go to the gym, everything I walk to, I have a car, which I barely use because I love to walk and obviously love to exercise. So this has been a massive challenge for me and obviously not having that independence because there are things that I'm really struggling to do and I've.
[00:03:02] I've been very blessed to have amazing family and friends who have offered and have supported me. I feel extremely lucky and, um, very grateful. So I've been getting lots of help, which again, for someone who's a high achiever and quite independent, it's a interesting time for me. And why am I sharing this?
[00:03:24] I mean, I guess it's a bit of an update on me. And there's, you know, there's a lot of insights that are coming through when, when you're in this position and, and things just don't work out the way that you want. You know, I was doing this meditation the other day and what came up, kind of a thought came up for me, which I had not thought before, which was
[00:03:42] everything in your personal life that you had worked hard for in the last 18 months, you didn't achieve.
[00:03:49] And I was like, oh, that's really interesting. That is so true. that's definitely something to ponder a bit more on. And you know, one of the other thoughts I had was, you know, [00:04:00] we are such creatures of. Making meaning out of things, you know? And it's one of the things that we as human being do, do, right?
[00:04:08] If something happens, we will have a spin on it. And whatever spin we put on it will either be something positive and make us feel okay, or it will be negative and then we won't feel okay. And people have said to me, you know, obviously you needed to slow down or cause I had this whole.
[00:04:23] Trip to the US booked a work trip. I had a mastermind to go to. I had the Joe Dispenza event to go to. So really two big things that I was so looking forward to and I had to cancel. And I was really devastated. Like honestly, it's took me two weeks to accept the fact that I'm going to be in this boot for 12 weeks and not be able to be independent, walk around and be mobile and exercise.
[00:04:49] Right. One of the first things I said to the surgeon before he took me, you know, I was like, okay, so six weeks I'll be back at the gym in six weeks. And he was like, uh, no, no. You may walk in six weeks, but you've got a long road to recovery. And so. You know, for me that was a really big deal. And obviously in my work I see people who resist where they're at and I can relate to it, right?
[00:05:12] I was resisting where I was at. I was like, I can't do 12 weeks. I cannot do 12 weeks like this. And it took me two weeks over only just really, really accepted it that, you know, could only take it day by day now. And, you know, there's little things that I can do and I'm, I'm focusing on that and, you know, I'm feeling.
[00:05:30] More mobile each day is the pain minimizes. So, you know, one of the things that, you know, as I was saying, I see clients all the time. They resist where they're at, and that resistance, uh, makes everything worse. You know, it makes pain worse, makes us feel worse about our situation. And so a lot of the advice that I've been getting, you know, people's like, oh, you needed to slow down, or maybe you shouldn't have gone to the us or, You know, you'll have a lot of quiet time now, so you'll really be able to self-reflect and see what kind of message is in this. And it was really interesting because I listened to [00:06:00] both perspectives and I was like, you know, in one mind I was like, what have I done wrong to do, to have this happen? You know?
[00:06:07] And I hear that from clients, you know, why is this happening to me? why am I having to suffer? And going back to my point about we make meaning out of things and whatever meaning we decide will dictate. The emotions that go with it. And so I don't know what it means. Like I can say, yeah, maybe I needed to slow down, but I don't think that I was in a place where I was needing to slow down.
[00:06:31] Like I felt pretty good. it could just very well be an accident, right? It could just be the randomness, chaos of the universe, and somehow I, I've had this accident and this is what happens, right? And nothing more beyond that. you know, that was one of my insights. I've had many insights through this, but that was one of them. You know, like whatever meaning I make up for this
[00:06:52] and about my situation
[00:06:54] is going to dictate how I feel
[00:06:56] you know, one's gonna be empowering in a sense, one's gonna be disempowering, but again, I'm only just making it up.
[00:07:02] And at the end of the day could just very well be. Accident, which is what it is. and maybe there is nothing more in that. Maybe there will be some great things that come out of this, having a lot of time to not be active and therefore being a lot more in self-reflection. maybe good stuff will come out of this, but I don't think that it was brought upon me for something And the other thing that, you know, I wanted to go back on was everything that I had worked so hard for in my personal life I didn't achieve. And it's not to say that I'm not still gonna continue to work hard for those things or move towards that, or have that as my goal or have that as my intention and keep moving in that direction.
[00:07:42] But it's interesting that, you know, that came up for me in my meditation that you just haven't achieved those things. And if you are in that place where you are working hard for something, it's not happening for you, you're feeling really frustrated, You know, look at the scenario that you're in and look at the things that aren't working out for [00:08:00] you. have a contemplation on that because. I found that really interesting. I just found it like something that I need to go further into to have a look at.
[00:08:08] Like, why aren't these things working out for me? what's the barrier there? What's the block there? And maybe this time of being sedentary for 12 weeks is gonna gimme that opportunity to see something that I didn't see before, right? So if you're in that place and things aren't working out for you, do not give up.
[00:08:22] you know, you still wanna move forward and achieve what you wanna achieve, but. You know, have a look at why it's not working out. What could be the barrier there? What could be holding you back? What do you need to have an insight about or see something more deeply about that, that you haven't before?
[00:08:37] I mean, I'd love your comments guys. If anyone's been in my situation, I welcome any advice for rapid healing of an ankle fracture, broken in three places. Uh, and, um, if anyone's got any great tips for accelerated healing, I'm. Please give them to me. I currently have, I have to give this a shout out actually.
[00:08:59] I'm using a PEMF mat, which is a pulse electromagnetic field mat, I only got it two days ago. I was in a lot of pain and I laid on the pen mat and actually my mom is here and I was like talking so much after it and I was like, she's like, you seem like you're better.
[00:09:16] And I was like, you know what? I'm not in pain. So it's pretty powerful. I don't know this electromagnetic field stuff. I love energy medicine things, you know, I'm, I mean, I'm taking my supplements, I'm doing the nutrition and all of that kind of stuff, but, and the homeopathics. Um, but if you've got any other tips for me, throw them my way, I want to be, uh, going to the doctor and him to say, wow, you heal so fast, you can get outta that boot early.
[00:09:42] I can only hope. All right, guys, that's my update. I'm gonna be. Sitting down doing my podcast for a while instead of standing up. you know, I'll be a homebody for 12 weeks. So this is my new reality, but I know that each day will get better and um, I will adjust.
